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Collection of thoughts, poetry and pieces of my soul…..
Trump’s America
We See the deception of the false reality you’re trying to project and we will exercise our voices to object your unAmerican, racist and ignorant plans to destroy the lives of all human beings, animals, the climate, relationships with our allies, all for the sake of your egotistical God complex.
You cannot filter what we see and what we can say.
I trail the sun, Searching for the first glimpse of my moon, For love shines upon her edges, And her craters shadow me from the loss of light I once mistook for love.
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Dystopia
Living in a false sense of reality, Surrounded by FAKE PEOPLE, FAKE NEWS, SOCIAL MEDIA VOYEURISM, DESTRUCTION, Disillusioned by truth, Playing second fiddle to my own life, I began to question where I am and I wonder, Am I living in a 21st Century Dystopia?
-hope Kenyon
The Dance With Fate
There lies the dance with fate,I sway in the dust of memories purest hate,
Passionate anger, I cry,
Buried bones within my flesh,
I rot,
They hold me back from life, killing my soul, piece by piece,
I have no choice but to let you all go,
To banish you all in forgiveness so that I may live,
May these skeletons find wings to fly.
-hope kenyon
Love Story
The sound of his voice bewitched her senses,
Sweet red wine lingered as she tasted his words,
Love traced the edges of her lips,
She desired his kiss,
She wanted to consume a love story.
-hope kenyon
The Tides of Passion
The tides of passion have swept me out to sea consuming my heart whole, remnants of my love trail the ocean floor, never to see light again, for I fear sea monsters exist with an appetite to devour hope and I stand fearful once more of love. -hope kenyon
336 Miles Apart
There’s magic in our conversations
336 miles apart
Your voice soothes me
I feel your soul
Like a calming sea in the distance viewed from the shore
We are connected
You are air
I am water
You remind me to breathe
I remind you to drink
We nourish each other’s soul
A stillness within my heart traces our boundaries
I remember we stand 336 miles apart
Yet we are not
We always return to where we left off
Two creatures of the sea
Both near and far
Swirling, dancing, touching
Divided by a wave touching both sides of our heart
Interlaced by a body of water
Drifting together, drifting apart
Moving side by side
Fused by movement
A vision of peace and beauty
Sharing one heart
And I remember
You are air
I am water
Dancing in the sea
336 miles apart
White T-Shirt and Blue Jeans
I deleted all your pictures today
All of the ones of you and me
I was holding on to a few
The ones that use to save me and get me through
Now I’m setting those memories free
Forgetting who we used to be
Should’ve deleted them sooner
When there was no more future
Maybe I didn’t want to erase you out of hate
Maybe I was waiting for my first blind date
There’s finally peace saying good-bye
There’s no more tears to wipe from my eyes
There’s never gonna be a missed telephone ring
No more messages or words to hang on to pretending to be the real thing
A straight up mockery
Your love games
Makin foolish girls dream
While you pretend to catch their hearts
Leaving us to fall apart
There’s no reason to hold on to the past
There’s no reason to keep looking in the rear view mirror trying to make it last
I’ve got to keep my eyes on the road
Keep looking forward to the one I’ve been searching for
Come heaven or hell
He’s out there ringing some sort of bell
A gentleman waving and waiting for me
He’s got on a white t-shirt and blue jeans
He’s out there looking for me
I’ll be looking for him
I’ll be hollering to the wind
Whispering honey ima coming
Just stand still
Keep waving those hands
I’m gonna find you through the thick and the thin
I’ll be moving on up
You’ll be watching the way I keep steppin it up
The beauty with break-ups
There is always someone else waiting to hold the door open
And closing it behind us as you follow me
As you watch the loss of a good thing
Me standing in the arms of a gentleman with a white t-shirt and blue jeans
To Believe
I see my path it tastes so sweet
I’m lit up like the 4th of July
I’m happy for the first time
I’m living the dream
It is just that, it is a dream
A mental mirage
A faint weep can be heard if you stand close enough to me
Be careful I warn
My feet are stuck in cement
An illusion created out of fear
You know, the ones the dream makers forewarn of?
Tied by the mental ropes
I struggle to get free
To live the reality I dream
This darn fear
It has a hold on me
If I open my eyes
I can catch a glimpse of colors
If I remember to breathe
I can smell victory
I can, I will,
Free my soul
Release the fear that binds me
I just need to believe
Far Away From You
I misconstrued the bleeding from my soul
I was bleeding from my head not my heart
You never held the power to destroy me-I was misled
It’s a cleansing
A proper good-bye
There are no more tears to dry
There is no real loss
You are no longer in the running for my Prince Charming
Good-bye my dead love
I wish you a sweet death
In love-hell where they bury love alive
I’m free from the lies that kept me cornered
Released from the burden of tethered chains
I am a hundred pounds lighter than I’ve ever been
I want to drive on a highway
At speeds over 105
Not to crash
But to celebrate my freedom
I’m fucking over you at last
Today is the beginning
Today is my end
You no longer fit in a speck of dust crossing my path
Or any god damn thoughts where you used to stand
You are no longer my first and last thought
You killed me- finally, at last
You killed the love I used to hold
My love is buried in Love-land
Where it will re-bloom
In a garden of love
Far away from you
Where is my warrior, my lord, my god?
Desire and passion
Just the mere thought brings me to my knees
Arms held overhead
My body against the wall
The heat of his breath whispering against my neck
His right knee gently wedged between my thighs pressing firmly against me
The ecstasy being in that moment of energy
I sigh…
Those are the thoughts that haunt me
The way his scent intoxicated me
He was the lover before last
He was a universal love
Where we made love in the clouds underneath the stars
Yet the strength of his kiss missed the erotic touch I missed
If I could take his pleasure and mix it with another
One who kisses of fire and desire
I would have the perfect lover
The last lover tragically missed
The orgasms were there, but the kisses too wet to maintain a spark!
I Want
I Need
FIRE!!!
I want to feel my heart gasp
I want my stomach to fall
I need to be on the cusp of fainting and screaming for more
I crave a warrior
I want him to tear my goddess walls down
Chip away inch by inch with a fiery kiss
To turn my world upside down
To bring me to my knees
To weep of erotic joy
To take me back to the stars
With the moon as my guard
Where I belong
I need to feel loved and desired
So I ask…
Where is my warrior, my lord, my god?
An Expression of Chaos
Writing has always been the easiest way to express the words I struggle to say.
It’s the only way I know how to heal from the inside out.
I know I’ll never reach a hundred likes and that’s okay because most days I don’t even expect one.
Writing is the most intimate conversation with my soul and when I paint, it is the poetry of my soul’s response speaking back to me.
There is never a moment of silence, just thousands of conversations and words dying to be heard.
The beauty of this chaos rests in the deepest part of my soul’s existence to the chatter of the stars blessing the world in a language of like minds.
Diablo Juice
I know the devil himself paid me a visit
I fell in love at first sight
In this little bar on a Saturday night
I thought I was sipping on some beer
But I think that bartender slipped me diablo juice disguised as beer
The band was rocking words I can’t remember
He was sittin next to me and I was shaking like a leaf
I felt like I was dreaming
I thought all my prayers were answered when I looked in his eyes
Thinking back
Daydreaming in reality can be a dangerous thing
Days turned to years before I’d see the light
I didn’t see the beast had been hiding in those eyes
Fake love, cruel love, poisonous drinks
My obsession, my one and only love, I couldn’t think
All those shivers I thought was love
Boy I was wrong
He was giving me a deadly fever
I couldn’t see he was sucking my soul right from under my eyes
I thought I was in love
It was the booze playing tricks on me
No wonder he kept pouring another one for me
Altering my reality
Keeping those lines blurred
Charming me, my family and friends
We all thought he was the shit,
The bomb
But we were all wrong
All the signs flashing neon lights
I walked in the dark
Obscured to the light
I walked high
Following the devil blind
Lost in the dreams and fantasies
I missed the warnings
I followed roads that led me to darkness
Places that were not mine
Fake love, cruel love, poisonous drinks
My obsession, my one and only love, I couldn’t think
All those shivers I thought was love
Boy I was wrong
He was giving me a deadly fever
I couldn’t see he was sucking my soul right from under my eyes
Confused by the pain of hidden deceit
My heart was enchanted by all the lies
It wasn’t until the stars stopped shining
The moon started hiding
The crows swarmed overhead
I decided to pretend I was dead
I never thought I’d give up on someone like him
I thought he was my beginning and my end
Too drunk in love to see the truth
I got lost over and over again with the sights of him
When I came face to face with the hard lies
I woke from the mirage with a naked mind
Stripped of my soul, but my heart was finally mine
A Memory Book of Love and Lust
I stand still
Water beats forcefully against my chest
Enclosed within narrow glass doors
Steam clouds my view
Alone with drops of poison
I recognize they’re my thoughts of you
They caress my brain
In a loving painful way
Like a slow torturous kiss
The way my tongue used to trace your lips
The way your body swayed with uncontrollable desire
As my mouth danced in between and around your thighs
I scream
I pray
I want the memories to fade
To drain off me like the water flowing from my skin
Into the pipes
To make their way into the ocean’s waves
I want to flow freely
Fly with my battered wings
I want to display my scars
War wounds of love
The beauty of survival
My heart beats wickedly
Ready for a new desire
I am trying to hold on to love’s memory
And I am trying to erase it at the same time
Torn between heaven and hell
A memory book of love and lust
I burn the pages and singe my soul at the same time
Since I Stopped Loving You
I remember the laughter and smiles
Late nights, draft beer, smoking cigarettes
Going nowhere for miles
I found love in you
It was simple
Easy
Love always felt new
Then we threw it away
We got lost,
Things got complicated
We fought with closed ears, closed hearts
Now I carry your memory everywhere I go
It’s gotta be bad juju I know
Sealed in a locket
Kept in my pocket
I’m makin my own ruse
To help me when I’m feelin blue
I’m getting along, moving along
Creating new memories
Doing my best to stay strong
Lookin for a new accessory
To wear around my heart
These sappy love songs on the air
Reminding me of you
Trying to get the words right
They just don’t seem to fit, they’re too small, too tight, too big to keep
me from losing you
Metaphors, recollections, simple impressions
We all got a song or two about rejection
Or love that lasts
Love that don’t
We used to talk about the rain
Dream about the days we’d hold each other through the storm
Every drop that hit the window
Was a tear lost without you near
Rain today is an opportunity for another man
to cease the moment you threw away
I just want to get myself out there
Change the weather
Sing a happier tune
Find someone better looking than you
Now I carry your memory everywhere I go
It’s gotta be bad juju I know
Sealed in a locket
Kept in my pocket
I’m makin my own ruse
To help me when I’m feelin blue
I’m getting along, moving along
Creating new memories
Doing my best to stay strong
Lookin for a new accessory
to wear around my heart
Looking for some happier times
Happier tunes
Looking for a reason just to get by
Smiling was easy when I was around you
All my smiles have died since I stopped loving you
I Asked…
All I asked
was for you
to make me
feel
like I was one in a million
A simple good morning text
a smile from across the room
a simple gesture or
two
I didn’t ask for diamonds
fancy perfume
i didn’t ask for Michael Kors
or Jimmy Choo
I asked for a kiss
a hug
i asked for
sex
I asked for conversation
under the stars
i asked for adventure
even if that was a
picnic in a park
I asked you
to cherish
and appreciate
my love
I asked to see a movie
watch a tv show
i liked
read books together
I asked
for you
to be
present
in our life
To love the
girl next door
i asked you
to love me
And then you walked out the door.
Within My Heart
I wake up
all through
the night
I feel you
walking through
my thoughts
Why do
I sense you
in my head?
Can you
hear me
speaking back
to you?
Darling you
know i love
and miss you
too
You’re literally
gone
figuratively dead
but alive
in my head
I know you
are an
intuitive soul
too
I know you
block
and divert
the gift
The same
way
you block love
A flawed
mechanism
of your
heart
If you can
let me
in
Listen to
the words
i say
Let love
in
let it stay
Love yourself
start there
meditate
and receive
Feel me
enter
feel me
hug your soul
Take the emptiness
and release
the loneliness
and pain
Take the love
i have
the love
i gave
Carry it
with you
i can share
Carry the best
part
of me
don’t be afraid
I can’t
love you
in an eyes
view
But i
can love
you within
your heart
from now to eternity
Blessed is the
forgiveness
i bestow
and an apology
I’ll never know
what we could be
i pretend to feel nothing
to be numb
a false sense of reality
when i am eating
broken glass
i wash myself
with razor blades
dress my skin
with salt
i picture your face
when you ripped
out my heart
i miss your smile
and your laughter
when we pretend
what i thought was real
i miss my soulmate
i will miss
you
until the bitter end
i won’t call
or look
for you
in crowded
streets
i won’t say your
name
but i will feel
you always
crying within me
i walked barefoot
a thousand
lives
i looked for you each
time
i stumbled upon you
after three decades
i couldn’t believe i never
knew when i first met you
my soulmate found
the heart of my heart
the soul of my soul
i cried in relief
a few years of
epic love
and the illusion
is gone
now i cry in grief
to be dissed for a
high
your other love
i will cry a thousand
more lives
dragging my cut up feet
bearing the loss of what we could be
Misguided Trust
I keep falling for the same ol’ lies
I keep chasing what’s not mine
Sucker for enchanted eyes
Crooked smile bringing me to my knees
The pattern is on repeat
These men I meet
Misguided trust
You keep failing me
They say keep your head up
You’re beautiful, you’re special
I wish you were still mine
Lies, lies, lies
Don’t lie to me
Puttin on the charm
Making me adore something that’s not mine
Liars, cheaters, abusers
Walk away, walk away
Keep your tainted love tame
Keep it away from me
This pattern is on repeat
These men I meet
Misguided trust
You keep failing me
Memories of the past
You keep haunting me
Blasting them on a mother fuckin broadcast
I’m walking thru the twilight zone on every street
It’s the same ghost love with every man I meet
Misguided trust you keep failing me
Misguided trust you keep haunting me
Misguided trust I am on my knees
Beggin you please, beggin you please
Keep em away from me
A Man Wants to Adore
You’ve got to grow,
Spread your heart and fly,
Stop hovering and holding on to air,
There’s nothing left from years ago,
Ridiculously and childishly,
You cling to,
What?
Should’ve,
Could’ve,
Treated your man right,
A gutter mouth is a bedroom delight,
Not a way to respect your man,
Not the way your words run amuck,
Stop running to seek and stalk,
Can’t compare hamburger to steak,
Aged rib eye is better than carving fat off grisly chuck,
Should’ve realized the gem you had,
Should’ve treated your loved ones good,
With ultimate respect,
Not only when you had to,
People change,
They evolve,
Get treated like they’re meant to,
Like they deserve,
Who wants vanilla when creme brûlée sits at your feet,
Who wants aggressiveness when submissiveness caresses,
And adheres to all commands,
A man’s treat,
Domineering behavior should come from the man,
Not some twisted behavior of some woman,
Know your place,
This ain’t apples and oranges,
You don’t compare to me,
I’m rare,
Exotic,
And I know my place,
Know how to treat a man of gold,
Like treasure,
Stand behind your king like a queen should,
Respect him,
His family,
Friends,
Feed him,
And become the submissive,
Ravishing whore,
A man,
Wants to adore.
Unlock My Heart
As each tear dries
My level of love hides
As my emotions teeter
My anger is breaking the meter
I know to love
Breaks all the rules
I know to truly love
Meant I loved you
I opened my vulnerability ten-fold
I didn’t keep any walls up
I left the key to my heart
For you to have and hold
Now I’m angry with myself
For trying my hand at love
For loving the most selfish man
For thinking my love could soften your heart
Ah to love is foolish
Yet I try and try again to be brave
Hoping I find the right soul
Someone who wants to protect and unlock my heart
Free Me
Those that carry all things
Feel everything as real
Every day is a struggle of intertwined vines of emotions –
fear, love, pain, happiness, stress and anger
All surroundings are absorbed
Reminders of everything in an image to hold and release
Wings in a photograph
Find a way to free me
You Left Me To Die
I looked in your eyes
They made me believe I could never get hurt
Your eyes were deceiving
They were just filled with dirt
I thought it was love
But it was only lies
How many lies did you tell her?
So many lies so many times I believed
So many lies
So many lies
I wanted to believe
I thought you were the one
Now I’m just done
You’re nothing but a liar
Someone to run from
Your words fired with a silencer
No one heard
You shot me deep
Left me to bleed
Your words used to hypnotize
I felt alive
You left me to die
You put me on a pedestal
Made me believe
I thought I was special
I was your goddess
It was all just make-believe
You filled me with lies
Shielded me from the truth
Shot with bullets
I don’t understand
Why?
I thought you were the one
Now I’m just done
You’re nothing but a liar
Someone to run from
Your words fired with a silencer
No one heard
You shot me deep
Left me to bleed
Your words used to hypnotize
I felt alive
You left me to die
Dragon Wolf
He led me down into the inferno, I felt my soul start to melt away
Left me to contemplate my idealist ways
I burned in disbelief
I had to survive succumbing to the prince of darkness for temporary relief
I drank from the poisonous vile of mistrust
Ate from the bowl of lies in disgust
Pretended to savor these memories knowing it was the last time
Reckless words became my fix – oh what a crime
Spitting fire wasn’t just for kicks
I had to survive these lunatics
A hopeless romantic turned bitter sweet
Barb wire caged my heart from deceit
Nice thoughts shot me with burning darts
Reaching deep inside my heart
I fought to find my way back
To the others of my pack
With the soul of a dragon and the heart of a wolf
I’m stronger than the desire to love another fool
Leaving You Behind Me
You said she wouldn’t break us
I believed it to be true
But in the end you were wrong
When you let that woman walk right thru our door
You tried to blame it on other things
Tried to make me see it in a different light
I tried to patiently wait
But the stabs just kept coming right thru my heart
This woman you claimed to hate
The one you despised when the words rolled off your tongue- I saw it in your eyes
This egg, your seed
Was the only thread of connection to make
Isn’t that what you said?
But there she was still making a dent between the love you claimed
Sending notes she still loved you
Calling, texting all hours of the night making any excuse to keep her delusional love alive
How much more could one endure?
So many lies all proving to be true
Did she win?
I guess it depends on how you ponder the thought
Maybe the only winner is me
Leaving two toxic souls tied together behind me
Nurse Me Back To Life
You took my hand and kissed my soul
Pretended to be the one I would always adore
I rode the love train by your side
I was your one and only and you were mine
I thought our love would last
But you left
Now I’m wounded
Leaving a trail of blood beneath my feet
My heart just bleeds and bleeds
The love train ended when I started to see the real you
Our love began to fade
Was it me or was it you I missed all the signs
All you did was talk, talk, talk
Left me dancing to empty words disguised in a song
A toxic narcissist loved me, used me, deceived me until I wasn’t enough
I was just a girl in love, an empath absorbing it all
Xanax helps dry my eyes
I am hurt, angry, crying all the time
Why couldn’t I was see right thru you?
You pushed me so far into the dark corners of my mind; I was going crazy all the time
You faked our love
I thought that shit was real
I worshiped and cherished everything about you floating with my head in the clouds
You fooled me, oh yeah you did, you fooled me
I thought our love was bliss, what a fool when we kissed
I thought our love would last
But you left
Now I’m wounded
Leaving a trail of blood beneath my feet
My heart just bleeds and bleeds
The love train ended when I started to see the real you
Our love began to fade
Was it me or was it you I missed all the signs
All you did was talk, talk, talk
Left me dancing to empty words disguised in a song
A toxic narcissist loved me, used me, deceived me until I wasn’t enough
I was just a girl in love, an empath absorbing it all
I would have risked my life taken a bullet for you
I would have done anything for you
You were mine and I was yours
Now I am crying all the time over you
I wanted to love you
I wanted to be true
But you pushed my love away with all the lies
Took my love for granted for the last time
Now I need someone to save me to nurse me back to life
Slowly Dying in the Name of Love
I cannot feel the beating of my heart
Nor can I hear my thoughts through the static in my head
I am aware there is pain
Emptiness
Loneliness
Sadness
Bundled together, expanding in my sacral chakra
Crushing vital energy to my soul
Toying with my intimacy
My emotions have stonewalled everyone around me
They have abandoned me
Blocked any form of release
My energy is no longer grounded
My senses cut-off
I am slowly dying in the name of love.
Once Again
Yesterday I dreamed of freedom
I believed the vision was new-found hope
I have been trapped way too long
While I began laying out plans, I heard the softness of music it prompted me to dance
I danced in the sparkles that resembled stars in the room
Ah, I had missed the light more than I had realized
The time had finally come to leave behind the sorrows wounding my soul
This is the NOW I reminded myself
I must take the reins
Never to look back
Mindfulness has awakened the slumber of life that has swayed me and kept me imprisoned by my self-doubt
This is a gift
“The time is now, Stop procrastinating!”, said my soul
No longer was I going to allow the darkness of my surroundings chain me to mechanical thinking causing me to lose my way
I am going to reclaim my dreams, my desires, my soul!!
Time to kiss good-bye the past that no longer serves a higher purpose
Then the morning arrived…
It brought a new obstacle to stand in a way to challenge the dreams of yesterday
I now stand in the middle of darkness and light
Never to be defeated again, I scream at the top of my lungs with my arms extended wide and with the blessings of flipping my fingers, I say, “To whomever is playing this cruel joke, fuck you all, I am not your prisoner anymore!”
As my heart pounds, I cannot help but feel a little somber
The constant challenges we continually face
Do they ever go away?
It makes me wonder
Will I ever find what I am looking for?
Back to the dreams of yesterday
I must re-condition my mind
I must find the moment of now again
I took two steps back and now I must learn to step forward once again
Lost
I am lost in the very place I stand paralyzed in the moment of now
I have lost my faith in love
I have lost my way
I have lost hope
I have lost who I was
I have lost who I am
I have lost me
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