Diablo Juice

I know the devil himself paid me a visit
I fell in love at first sight
In this little bar on a Saturday night
I thought I was sipping on some beer
But I think that bartender slipped me diablo juice disguised as beer

The band was rocking words I can’t remember
He was sittin next to me and I was shaking like a leaf
I felt like I was dreaming
I thought all my prayers were answered when I looked in his eyes

Thinking back
Daydreaming in reality can be a dangerous thing
Days turned to years before I’d see the light
I didn’t see the beast had been hiding in those eyes

Fake love, cruel love, poisonous drinks
My obsession, my one and only love, I couldn’t think

All those shivers I thought was love
Boy I was wrong
He was giving me a deadly fever
I couldn’t see he was sucking my soul right from under my eyes

I thought I was in love
It was the booze playing tricks on me
No wonder he kept pouring another one for me
Altering my reality
Keeping those lines blurred
Charming me, my family and friends
We all thought he was the shit,
The bomb
But we were all wrong

All the signs flashing neon lights
I walked in the dark
Obscured to the light
I walked high
Following the devil blind

Lost in the dreams and fantasies
I missed the warnings
I followed roads that led me to darkness
Places that were not mine

Fake love, cruel love, poisonous drinks
My obsession, my one and only love, I couldn’t think

All those shivers I thought was love
Boy I was wrong
He was giving me a deadly fever
I couldn’t see he was sucking my soul right from under my eyes

Confused by the pain of hidden deceit
My heart was enchanted by all the lies
It wasn’t until the stars stopped shining
The moon started hiding
The crows swarmed overhead
I decided to pretend I was dead

I never thought I’d give up on someone like him
I thought he was my beginning and my end
Too drunk in love to see the truth
I got lost over and over again with the sights of him

When I came face to face with the hard lies
I woke from the mirage with a naked mind
Stripped of my soul, but my heart was finally mine

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Dragon Wolf

He led me down into the inferno, I felt my soul start to melt away

Left me to contemplate my idealist ways

I burned in disbelief

I had to survive succumbing to the prince of darkness for temporary relief

I drank from the poisonous vile of mistrust

Ate from the bowl of lies in disgust

Pretended to savor these memories knowing it was the last time

Reckless words became my fix – oh what a crime

Spitting fire wasn’t just for kicks 

I had to survive these lunatics

A hopeless romantic turned bitter sweet

Barb wire caged my heart from deceit

Nice thoughts shot me with burning darts

Reaching deep inside my heart

I fought to find my way back 

To the others of my pack

With the soul of a dragon and the heart of a wolf 

I’m stronger than the desire to love another fool

Devil In The Paisley Shirt

I still feel my heart hurtin

It’s making me want to sway

It’s making me want to find a way

Back to where I know comfort

Where love is brief

And pain is everlasting

Back to the devil in the paisley shirt

 

I’m shaken inside

My walls are breaking down

I’m looking for a reason to call

I’m about to fall

About to crumble to devil in the paisley shirt

 

All the lies I keep telling myself

They lead me back to you

I still love you, don’t you know?

Don’t you love me devil in the paisley shirt?

 

It’s making me sad

Making me mad

But I still can’t come home to you

You sold me out, sold my soul

I no longer belong to you

I don’t know where I belong devil in the paisley shirt

 

You danced whimsically across my heart

Played with my emotions made me your little tart

Made me doubt every word, every thought, and every emotion

You’re still playing my heart

Aren’t you devil in the paisley shirt?

 

Deep inside I know it was never true

You couldn’t love me like I loved you

You loved your demons more

Love to numb love away, isn’t that what all devils say?

You loved looking at all things pretty, left me feeling blue and used

Left me loving you devil in the paisley shirt

 

One of these days you’re gonna realize what I meant to you

One of these days you’re gonna realize you’ve been lying too

One of these days you’re gonna come crawling to the other side

One of these days you’re gonna wish I was still standing by your side

One of these days, one of these days, devil in the paisley shirt

What Life Once Was

Lost in the stillness
On a path
Venturing the distance
Leading with my backside
With nothing in view
Only miles and miles
Of shades of lemon and tangerine
A mirage of lemonade
A refreshing taste of yesterday
It covers my eyes
It gets real
I am locked inside my mind
Dancing with the devil
Sipping the poison
Breathing the blackness
Trapped
Suffocating
Barricaded in the confines of self-inflicted emotional abuse
MAKE THE VOICES STOP
Why doesn’t the sunshine rescue the helpless?
The emotional
The insecure
The lost
The colors
They cloud
Paint an image of peace
They should heal
Give hope
Why don’t they bring happiness to my mind?
Breathing fresh air
I’m outside
Dancing with the devil
The allure
Temptation
No holy test
To secure a place in the soul
To save the tortured
Damage has already occurred
I sold my soul to the devil
Damn the need to walk across to the other side
To view the greener grass
The artificial turf
Trickery of the source
When vulnerability captures the weakness
My sunshine starts to bleed
Turning grotesque red
I feel the heat
I’m dying
In the bottomless pit
Where tomorrow never comes
And today stands still
And yesterday is lost
A forgotten memory
Of what life
Once was
Before darkness stepped in
Stripping away the little bit of happiness
Why didn’t I just hold on?