It’s the quiet times alone that most the damage is done,
When the devil has won,
I’ve come undone,
Succumbed to my madness,
Plunged deep into depression,
My own happiness recession,
Facing four brick walls,
No where to crawl,
No one to blame,
I started the game,
My sadness winning,
The beginning to an end I’m left spinning.
The moment you stole a kiss,
I wish I could have frozen time,
I’d cherish the moment you were mine,
Long enough to cross the finish line,
With hardly any time to meet,
Your notes are mending,
Instant stimulation upon the sight of your words,
Blushing faces from across the room,
Chemistry heightened knowing our secret,
Tuned-in to the gleam in your eye,
The shared kiss,
The night we crossed the finish line,
Hold me close,
Touch the softness of my lips,
Lets embark on a new adventure,
An erotic one for two,
Creating memories,
Just you and me,
Souvenirs of our time together,
Keepsakes to treasure forever,
Through your eyes you touched my heart,
Through your touch my passion,
Through your words my mind,
You left me primed.
I can hear the silent breaths,
The calmness residing in my body,
Thoughts scattered and desperately seeking the pieces,
My soul trying to make sense of it all,
There is something foreign living in me,
My mind fighting what it could be,
Return me to my chaos,
Don’t fix me,
The gesture of a new life,
Leave me living in my daily trife,
Dancing with the devil,
That’s my life.
Last April you opened the door,
The man in the business suit,
Tall, dark and handsome,
Devilish grin, you invited me in,
Complete opposite of my kind,
Oh how you do better than fine,
Wrapping your fingers through my hair,
Kisses that scare,
Locked in and out of control,
Hypnotized my body and soul,
In a trance captivated by the seduction,
I am found in submission,
No need to rescue,
I don’t want to be found,
You will find the man living in me,
My own Christen Grey,
He opened the door,
And I haven’t been the same.
The rain beating down,
Bringing upon new life,
I can’t help but feel doom,
I see my demise,
Rain is cleansing and brings about purity,
Though my thoughts are buried in the mud,
Washing away in the storm drains,
Gone astray,
Out to sea,
Where you’ll find me,
Scattered in the waves,
Hidden from the rain that casted me away,
I know your intent was to cleanse the pain instilled inside,
I am now pure but forever lost in the tide.
My heart and head can’t seem to get on the same page,
Pulling me in two over and over again,
Wishing you could see the blue in my eyes,
Though all you see is the sparkles,
Walk away don’t look back,
My heart keeps running towards you,
For heavens sake keep walking straight, and don’t look back,
I’m going to love what little I know,
Crying there was more,
I’ve died a little each day,
Holding on to the moments I can’t get back,I keep saying I’m through,
There is nothing more I can do,
My head is the right place but my heart is home,
Walk away don’t look back,
My heart keeps running towards you,
For heavens sake keep walking straight, and don’t look back,
Looking for love over here and over there,
Escaping before it has a chance to become real,
My heart loyal to you,
Turning fifty shades of blue,
Walk away don’t look back,
My heart keeps running towards you,
For heavens sake keep walking straight, and don’t look back.
The love I crave is fueled by passion,
Desires so deep I can’t sleep,
The fire in your eyes,
Setting me on fire you can hear the cries,
An adventure each time,
No matter if its only in my mind,
It’s you I drink to quench my souls thirst,
The person I reach for first,
There’s blackness living in you,
It’s where I want to be too,
So I can be near,
Whispering in your ear,
All the things you make me want to do,
Laying here next to you,
The devil brings about a seductive ring,
You laugh as my soul begins to sing,
The allure so strong,
You have won,
My heart has unravelled,
As you travel,
Away, laughing at me,
For my love isn’t love, it is lust and it can never be.
Love is a risk one must be willing to take,
There are no guarantees that love will last,
Though if you believe in love and give with your heart,
What have you to lose?
A day without one to share all your dreams and hopes,
Or a hand to hold when all seems in despair,
Isn’t the pain of no one to kiss good night or the smile in the new morning light,
Worse than taking the chance to love and be loved?
I would rather throw all my chances to love,
Than to grow old without the risk to love the one who holds my heart.
Bewitched in her hour of darkness,
Led astray by those she trusted,
Violated in ways unimaginable,
Lost is a soul waiting to be rescued,
Tormented day after day by the demons who stole her spirit,
Screams echo from her mind,
Can you hear them when she passes by?
The tears forming permanent cystals,
They are endless,
Numerous prayers, candles and drugs mask the problems,
Someone save her innocence before she drowns in sorrow,
Shower her in white light,
Banish the monsters away,
A young gifted child too young to die.
In the stillness of the night,
I put aside my fright,
Calmness closing in,
The rest to begin,
Traveling to and from,
Adventures begun,
The chance of a life time,
I had won,
Don’t wake I beg,
The finish line just ahead,
Too late the day about to break,
I must wake,
Return me to my dreams,
Where everything is new,
Where my dreams come true,
When I first saw you.
It’s been building up for awhile,
A bottle of love about to explode,
The words trying to escape my lips,
Confess the love inside,
The fear leads me to bottle cap with silence,
Afraid to leave you with this mess,
Sealing my lips with your kiss,
My love stays contained forever
in me.
Just like a blink of an eye, you’re gone,
I sent you away, casted out to sea,
My love disappeared and it’s no where to be found,
I thought I loved you,
Overnight the light went on,
What I thought was love never really existed at all,
It’s not love when I can’t see tomorrow, it’s not love to just live in the now. It’s killing me, I’m drowning,
Mentally I was attracted to the bad boy I knew you were,
Wrapped up in the persona of it all,
You’re no good for me, nothing but love, no food or shelter,
Not a lot to go on from here,
I need more than love,
A promise of a future that is bleak can’t bring us a brighter tomorrow,
It’s not love when I can’t see tomorrow, it’s not love to just live in the now. It’s killing me, I’m drowning,
I had to cut you free,
Needing the whole package, it’s just not love we need to survive,
I’m gonna miss your charm, your charisma,
Hoping to find another who possesses these things,
I loved you, just needed more,
Someone who allows me some freedom to be who I am,
Not to hold me back from my dreams,
It’s not love when I can’t see tomorrow, it’s not love to just live in the now. It’s killing me, I’m drowning,
My creativity was drowning,
Consumed by the obsessiveness,
You drained me, you killed me, made me hollow.
Two souls have connected and the universe has disappeared,
All we’ve ever known has been erased,
Centuries of searching,
The lock has found a key,
Naturally they are one,
In this moment they are gone,
When apart,
They finish each others thoughts,
To hearts drawn to a flame,
Sparking a light that can’t burn out,
She’s consumed in his presence,
She has become his essence,
They will go mad in love,
Or dream of dying in each others arms,
Soulmates through eternity,
They’re found.
I’m climbing the walls with desire,
Desire that only you can bring,
My soul is on fire,
I’m burning in hell,
Someone ring the bell,
There’s no rescue,
No amount of saving will do,
Damned is where I’ll be,
Can’t you see?
Wicked little girl,
Painted picture of a Jezebel,
Your little princess no more,
Too much in store,
Left to wander for a pleasure seeker,
Desperate to find a keeper.
I sensed your lips tracing my breasts,
The erotic pleasure racing across my chest,
I closed my eyes as you inhaled my flesh,
My body moving to the dance of your kiss,
Wondering what was next,
I reached my hands back to feel your strength,
You were no longer there,
My reality exposed and bare,
My dream within my dream,
I long to be,
Intertwined with you,
Sedated with your drug,
Touched by your love,
Here with me.
I was the last to know I fell in love,
Everyone around me kept telling me so,
I’m going to keep putting up the fight,
Can’t confess to you that everyone is right,
It’s not pride holding me back,
To confess the words you already know,
It’s the fear chaining me inside,
Letting you know leaves me vulnerable,
The unknown,
Can’t be left to linger,
The fear it’s real,
How would I deal?
Bury me with my secret,
I’d rather die than let you know,
I keep screaming inside,
I love you so.
Love is in the air,
Though I just don’t seem to care,
Played too many times,
I’m worn, scattered and blind,
My heart is fragile and wide,
I keep letting you inside,
Label me a fool,
I just can’t seem to get rid of you,
More pain than its worth,
You rule this turf,
You claim to not play,
But honey you’re the creator of the game,
Only one winner here,
The one with no heart,
As you say good bye,
Tip toe around my scattered heart on the floor.
You’re the first thought of my day,
Where you will remain today,
No amount of distractions can keep you out,
You’ll always come about,
The sinister sex I envision,
Your my conviction,
The ache in my heart,
The tingles below,
Can’t get you out of my soul,
Oh how I try,
You’re tied to me,
Can’t cut the bond,
I tried to run,
Then I heard you calling,
I stopped,
Fell to my knees,
Begging you please,
I can’t take the tease,
Embrace me with your hand locked in my hair,
Kiss me and end me with your stare
It’s dark outside and there’s no light in the sky,
No sun to remind me I’m alive,
I’m clearly about to dive,
Into my abyss,
Succumb to my inner demons,
The death of my thoughts,
Becomes a place of comfort,
Soon to be just an afterthought,
Pleading to be saved,
Though you can’t hear my silent frantic screams,
For all you see from me is a smile and the words I’m fine.
Seeing your smile that brings the sparkle to my eyes
Hearing your laughter filters the air
The taste of you kiss subsides my hunger
Feeling your embrace takes my worries away
The scent of your skin so intoxicating, it lights up my sky
It is within my deepest passion,
I am lost,
Missing your smile, your fire,
If I close my eyes,
Listen closely,
There is no distance,
You are near and I am no longer misplaced,
I hear the sound of your voice,
My soul is calmed,
I’m home, no longer wanting you,
Connected and we are free,
To love and just be,
To breathe,
But I must stay here in this thought,
I can’t allow my eyes to open,
For my desires will be smashed,
Reality will set in,
And it will be one in the same,
Empty again and no one to blame.
I met you the other day,
We had so much to say,
Enthralled by you my dear,
My imagination was wild yet clear,
Our excitement grew,
Quick, spontaneous, we just knew,
It was late,
Turned on by seeing you hop over my gate,
In for a wild ride,
You came inside,
Then you were gone,
What went wrong,
A few weeks have passed,
The talks a little less,
Today after seeing you,
I still see fire in your eyes,
It’s not over between us,
It’s happening again,
Silence and distance creates a world of illusions and unanswered questions,
Thinking it was over and just another love affair,
I saw the twinkle in your eye,
Then I just knew it wasn’t good bye.
The chemistry between us lights up the room,
Magnetic energy I feel the doom,
Is it lust? Is it love?
I thirst for your touch,
You’re now my emotional crutch,
My walls have fallen to my knees,
I am begging you please,
Meet me halfway,
I promise to stay.
Broken wings have kept me down,
I can no longer fly above the clouds,
I’m kept low to the ground,
Under the sky,
Don’t let me die,
Mend my wings and help me learn to rise.
Death is still,
And so sudden,
You left me here,
And now my world has changed,
Alone, empty, and still frozen,
Memories of you fading away,
Help me now before I erase,
Remove the pain for I am heartbroken,
Reach out to me,
Help me through the daily agony of you whom I’ve forgotten.
Some days my sky is grey,
My silence sulking,
A tear drop here and there,
Trying to breath before I’m no longer care,
The pain is real,
I physically feel,
Can’t you hear the silent screams?
I’m shouting, yelling from the top of my lungs,
Shake me, slap me,
How can this be?
Why must the pouting tear me in two,
Make me feel so blue?
Reaching, searching, I dig deep,
It’s your love that I seek,
Sigh, your warmness starts to fill me up inside,
Guiding angel of light I can now fly.
Those words were not mine,
At times I get consumed in deep reflection and I’m over-ruled,
Emotionally intoxicated my own thoughts get confused,
Which gets projected by the dismal side of me,
Though it is you that fuels my twisted state of mind,
You are not to blame for the madness I bring,
I’m fully capable of condemning myself,
Perhaps I should just set you free,
I can’t keep bringing this about,
I’m madly in love with you,
Though its only my dream,
Within those dreams I constantly awake,
Return my soul to where I can dwell in my sadness,
And pay for my consequences forever in my own eternal hell.
To have hope keeps our dreams alive,
It is where we cherish our thoughts,
our visions, even our deepest secrets and desires,
We must keep these close to our heart sometimes,
There are too many others who are quick to kill the dreams of you and I,
It’s not to be cruel or mean,
They just lack the vision to dream,
The desire to achieve,
Perhaps when you come across someone who can’t see,
Don’t let it deter you,
Smile, say a little prayer,
May they find hope, like you and I.
Intrigued by the words,
Captivated by the her sex,
Look deeper into her soul,
There is more than meets the eye,
Your high awaits,
Not from the way she moves,
Not from the way it feels in the flesh,
Take yourself to new spiritual heights,
Open the doors, open your heart and mind,
There is love unknown,
You’ll be amazed,
Come undone,
And just learn to feel,
She is real.
Ravish me with words,
Pump me up and tell me I’m sexy,
Lure my innocence with your charm,
Make me look the other way,
Just a toy for today,
Returned tomorrow for a refund,
Set aside, tossed aside,
Good for a moment,
Just another last minute token,
You’ve left me broken.
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