When I’m Home

Each second I’m away from him,
Sends me into a spiraling abyss,
Each moment his lips aren’t meeting mine,
My soul dives deeper,
Into a dark torment,
An iron-rod cell,
The center of my mind,
My third eye,
Searching and dying for my Romeo,
Enchanted by his eyes,
His stories,
I find divine,
He intoxicates my soul,
I hunger to know more,
My heart grows weary,
His scent lingers on my hands,
I feel him in each breath,
I ache for those million little heart attacks,
He’s my melody,
My rhythm and blues,
I dance and sing,
With each delight,
With each squirm,
With my lowered breath,
I whisper into his ear,
I’m home,
He’s inside,
My heart,
My soul,
My mind.

Our X-Rated Porn

Your hand gently grazed my waist,
I hungered to taste,
Your eyes commanded my stare,
They didn’t seem to go no where,
Lost in each other’s glare,
I longed to become a receptacle of your vessel,
My body directed you to my version of mescal,
You lit up,
To drink from our death cup,
The devilish laugh as you realized it is for you,
I gasped,
Overflowing juices,
The frenzy,
My skin jolted,
Wanting to detach from my bones,
I wanted you inside,
I closed my eyes,
And the movie played in my mind,
I watched us star,
In an X-rated porn,
The more I sighed,
The more you responded,
And I could no longer hide,
Shivering like a cold day in November,
I trembled at each touch,
My uncontrollable senses guided by my soul,
I smiled and realized we were putting on a show,
The gods watched as we made love,
Not like mortal souls,
We are immortal beasts,
Ravishing each other,
An uncontrollable feast,
We merge into one,
Melting skin,
Our bodies pinned,
Fitting like a perfect puzzle,
Shifting and guiding with ease,
Maneuvering to stay within mouths reach,
My lips nibble,
I can still taste the saltiness from your flesh,
And I crave to taste you again,
To run my tongue up and down the sides of your body,
To the inside of your thighs,
Stopping to inhale,
The musk hiding behind your jewels,
Cupping and pulling,
You yearn to be absorbed,
My hand meets your head,
Oozing with sweet cream,
I drink a drop,
Savoring the idea,
There is more yet to come.

The Fog

I’ve been down this road before,
Lost in the fog,
Making my way through the haze,
Pushing my way through the doubt, and corruption of the thoughts rotting my mind

Begging and pleasing don’t let this be the same,
Not another wrong turn,
Don’t knock me down,
Again

Not this time,
Don’t squash my hope,
My dreams,
Condiluted with worry, regret, and
Fear

Fear, don’t rule me now,
Fear, walk away from here,
Fear, keep walking,
Fear, get the fuck out of here

Don’t look my way,
Never thought I’d be stuck here again,
Flopping for air,
Knocked out of this water game

A technical foul,
Called truth,
Or doubt,
Trying to make sense of what just happened, I don’t know

What the fuck am I doing here,
What hell are you doing to me,
Making me run scared,
Numbing my heart

Making me feel nothing,
Locking the chambers,
Before the tear gas goes off,
Fuck, fuck, fuck,
Where do I go from here

Fear, don’t rule me now,
Fear, walk away from here,
Fear, keep walking,
Fear, get the fuck from here

Drowning my fears tonight,
The bottle of red washes through my veins,
Hiding the truth,
This nasty thing,
Behind the doubt,
The fog.

Wiping Away Sleep

Sleep tries to steal my thoughts,
My subconscious wants it’s moment of glory too,
And I strain to keep my eyes wide open,
Scour through images,
Notes,
Any thought that reminds me,
Of you,
And I wonder if sleep wins,
Will my dreams bring you again?
Will I wake,
To brush the sleep from my eyes,
To see you lying by my side,
Will it be morning,
With you here,
Will I see you lying naked,
Arms and legs wrapped tightly around me,
During a glorious sunrise,
Will light from the window shine across your beautiful onyx eyes,
While you ask me if I slept,
Kiss me with our dragon breath,
And I will sigh sweetly,
Smile,
Giggle at the touch of your whiskers,
Thanking god,
For the dream,
That’s come true,
From all the nights,
I dreamt of you,
Where I woke up,
Wiping my skin of sleep,
Staring sadly,
At an empty set of sheets.

I Die and I Die

You are the one that revealed the truth,
you are the one that I see visions through,
my future,
my alpha male

running through dark woods,
my black hair shines in your light,
I look back,
slow my pace,
you’re not there,
my lungs cry

my heart is not beating, my heart is not beating, my heart is not beating
save my soul, where are you tonight, why does my soul cry

my soul weeps while the days run from us,
time races from each day to the next,
my soul stops breathing until the next kiss

the wolves stop howling, they silence in our locked lips, and i whimper,
they pace and they wait to save me, to save us

you breathe life back into me,
and it sustains momentarily,
until I see you go,
and I cry each day we are apart

my heart is not beating, my heart is not beating, my heart is not beating
save my soul, where are you tonight, why does my soul cry

i keep myself busy,
i stand outside and i soak in the sun’s rays,
remind myself to keep breathing
and I laugh,
and I smile

I’m full of a million emotions mixing,
a perfect cocktail,
and I wait to drink with you,
the weekly union that we seek

why god, why, does time seem so slow,
the moon is growing,
faster in the evening sky,
lighting the way,
until you are holding me,
kissing me,
under the moonlight,
where all the worries fade,
where nothing else matters,
but our locked lips in heaven

the pack is restless, and i am dying in the center of my kind,
waiting in the woods for you to find me,
and they howl,
scream, rescue her, rescue us

my heart is barely beating,
i die and i die,
over and over,
until the moment,
i can see you again.

I ask, What is Love?

What is love?
Love is an empty box,
where you place in between two,
and fill,
with pieces of your soul,
and your heart,
giving effortlessly of yourself,
placing the tokens today,
making memories,
creating new ones where we can draw from,
our box will fill with riches,
where we can take if ever in need,
to cherish,
to place on a pedestal,
love is what derives between you and me,
we took a an empty box,
and it is filling with treasures more beautiful than gold,
love is in our hearts and souls,
and I promise to never drain the box,
to keep replacing what I take,
never to kill the love that floats between our souls,
never to take more than I give,
love is letting go,
and if I ever lose your love,
I’d let go,
allow someone else to love you so,
love is not selfish,
love is a blessing,
a wonderful gift,
and I am rich,
in love beyond words,
though the term letting go,
will only be in the sense of dropping the walls around my heart,
you’re embedded into every crevice of my heart and soul,
I want you to know that I respect you,
value what we have,
what we share,
I dance around this filled box,
it radiates,
it shines,
the whole world is touched,
and everyone around us too,
feels the love we have,
the love shared between us two,
it is cultivating,
and we are spreading love in the air,
all those around seek to feel,
fill their empty boxes,
With the Epic Love in the eyes of you and me.

I Don’t Play Games

you think you are slick with your games,
you think your trash talking is gonna win your flame,
you are fooling no one,
the only fool standing there is you,
see the trash barrel burning?
watch those dancing flames,
you’re going to get burned,
gonna be left,
charbroiled and crusty,
all dried up and flaky,
just like your soul,
you little filet of fish,
you are gonna get what you deserve,
you ain’t got nothing on this little dish,
nothing decorative,
not even decent bait,
no appetite you can create,
from the mouthiness you contain,
no competition,
they don’t allow your kind,
in this league,
I don’t play games,
Intellectual debates,
maybe,
you think you have enough to compete?
sit down bitch,
you are competing against no one but yourself,
you are playing these games alone,
making yourself a foolish,
little bore,
silent in the laughter,
you don’t even know.

Decorated and Found

I’m simply amazed by the way he moves me,
I’m in awe of every second,
Everyday,
There was a moment in our bliss,
A thought overcame me,
I had to stop myself from asking him,
While I felt him tightly inside of me, Closing all gaps between us,
Is it really real?
All my life,
All the unworthy,
Mediocre,
Masked souls before you,
Has led me,
Just to find you,
My sweetest,
Darkest angel of them all,
My pure,
Black-winged angel,
With a glowing soul,
The heart of a fierce lion,
Waiting to bat away all,
You were there all along,
I was just to foolish to see,
All the school years wasted,
Away,
My childhood has returned,
Just for me to look at you again,
In a new light,
Darkest, erotic and most tantalizing creature,
You move the earth’s core,
I’m absorbed,
Spun,
Captured and bound,
To my devil,
Decorated and found.

We are all we Need

i wasn’t sure what i was looking for when i was young and naïve,
wasn’t sure what god had intended for me,
left me astray,
never to see a rightful day

i was left singing the blues,
in my rock-n-roll world,
sat there dying and crying in a river of fools,
i was dying and crying over you,
the you i didn’t know,
but i was missing you

somewhere buried in my heart and soul,
i heard you singing the blues too,
i felt the melody,
like a rush,
a cold chill,
an unfathomable, brain freeze,
i felt you in my veins,
you shot through me,
a warm, familiar blaze breaking through

this is the life I’ve been searching for,
the life i was dreaming of,
grateful for the days there are no more blues,
realizing now i am now blessed,
just to have you

i was left singing the blues,
in my rock n roll world,
sat there dying and crying in a river of fools,
i was dying and crying over you,
the you i didn’t know,
but i was missing you

you were sad too,
all these years without me,
your glue,
the band-aid for the days,
they hurt you

wanders in the stories of a life,
the life that wasn’t ours,
the untold stories dying to be told,
the beautiful tales we are made of

in this fairy tale world,
there are no more grey days,
no more rustling leaves,
crackling into dust,
we have each other,
realizing that this truly,
remarkably,
ideally, is enough.

A Night to Remember

Twelve hours of your smile,
Intoxicating laugh,
Our conversations were endless,
Oh how they last,
I am moved in uncharted grounds,
Your sweet essence,
Is imprinted in my soul,
You have turned me into your erotic flare,
Weeks of charting my points,
Connecting the dots,
Pressing all the unknown erogenous zones,
Just to see how to move
me,
Our secret pleasure no one knows,
And I am slipping back to last night,
Where we floated in the universe,
Under our stars,
Interlacing our invisible red string,
Binding our souls,
I’m bound to you,
Heart and soul,
You move me,
Send me into the exotic dance,
My body dances,
My hips sway,
To each thrust,
You are all mine,
I am yours,
The consummation was divine,
Your uncontrolled silent screams,
I heard them in my soul,
Felt the trembles between my thighs,
Your pleasure is mine,
I still see your soul through your eyes,
My soul looks back,
And we know,
Only what true lovers know,
Our union of magical bliss continues,
Now,
Today,
Forever tied,
We are alive,
And my desire fills,
Swells,
A river of your passion juice awaits,
For the next night we consummate,
Another night to remember,
More passionate kissing,
Another bedroom dance,
I’m forever yours.

If you Seek, then Ask, and I will Tell You What You Want to Know

Do you want to peek inside my mind,
would you like to catch a glimpse of what makes me tick,
where my ideas derive from?

Do you want to walk down the dark path of light,
sparkling with thoughts like diamonds?
where realty meets fantasy,
right before your eyes?

Where one minute I want to save the world,
replace childhood stricken worries with art,
or hunt the poachers who prey on the innocent victims who display god honest trust

Would you like to see compassion in its truest form?
would you like to walk down the erotic adventures my mind creates?
where a romantic fling turns the innocent-minded who are bereft of passion,
and give them light?

Do you want to hear my ideas,
how chemistry keeps the glue,
my ideas on respect,
trust?

Would you like a moment to speak to the hypothetical witch,
a sex goddess,
do you want to be cured?
Relieve yourself of the worry that haunts you?

Do you want to be possessed in life?
do you want to walk on the line of the dark side?
where we can teeter back and forth,
depending on the day,
and needs of life

do not fear what you do not know,
do not fear to see the show,
and do not fear me,
i am the truest of anyone you’ll ever know

I am free,
i am a spirit that runs with the horses,
i fly with the hawks and eagle,
dance with the trees

i am a child of the spirits,
nothing but love flows through me,
i hear the ghosts of yesterday,
everything alive and dead speaks through me

I’ll be your friend,
i will help you see,
do not fear me,
you will come to love me

I invite you with open arms,
to turn your worries into light,
some dark,
but what are friends for?

There is so much life has to offer,
so much yet to be seen,
i am here to be a guide,
and teach those in need of the ailing things we do not see.

Edging

I closed my eyes just to look at you,
I inhaled the look as you soaked in my face,
The wicked gleam glowing from your eyes,
The look of satisfaction exuding from your crooked grin,
A breath of pleasure,
We sighed together,
You placed not one,
But two marked fingers,
To explore,
What is yours,
Inching closer to hit the mark,
Pausing,
Edging,
My release,
To wait,
Creating tension,
My out of control edge,
The unforeseen lust,
You ponder,
Grab my hair,
Pull me in,
Just to kiss me deep,
Pushing my face away,
You gently slap me,
Your chuckle echoes,
We laugh,
You’re going to finish me,
Please me,
And I impatiently wait,
For your magic,
To rise,
Higher,
Deeper,
I can’t control,
My screams,
I can’t breathe,
The edging,
I now need,
I adore,
You finish me,
And I lay helpless,
In the carnal aftermath,
Raw,
Aroused,
Angry,
Oh the madness,
Only we know.

Riding the Wave

The emotional wave has swept me off my feet,
Left me wobbly in your plans.
To play with when you’re bored,
When you want to explore,
To hold when you’re cold,
When sadness brushes you,
And in those happiest moments,
To mold,
To turn me into your gold,
Any jewel,
Like platinum to hang around your neck,
To cherish,
To display,
Your trophy,
I’m yours to have by your side,
To walk,
To listen with open ears,
And mind,
For random conversations,
Deep, and meaningful ones,
I am yours for as long as you want,
For as long as you need,
You are gifted with words,
You are such a blessing to me,
I want, and need you more than ever,
You’re my life force,
A godsend,
I’m forever in awe of your presence,
You make me melt,
With everything felt,
I’ve never loved anyone as much as I love you,
Never felt the rush of love,
The warmth it has on my soul,
Never known the joys of the fools,
Or lover’s brand new,
Until I met you,
And each day,
As our love grows,
I light up more.
Each day we’re separated,
I search for you more,
In my thoughts,
In my embrace,
My breath,
My whispers,
In everything I touch,
I grace,
You make me smile on the greyest days,
My soul does soar with every single thought of you,
And my soul cries each second I’m away from you,
You’ve pulled the floor from under me,
Left me floating in dismay of what you mean to me,
I float,
I linger,
In these delicate rose petals,
Awaiting thorns that will never come
to be,
You’re the angel god has blessed upon me,
And I’m home forever in your presence,
I am found,
I am yours,
To play,
To keep,
And I crave you,
Just to look at me.

Looking Towards Tomorrow

I walked down the path of tomorrow,
Held my head high,
Kept looking ahead,
Never gonna look back,
To my dreaded past,
Missing the better part of me,
My soul,
You and me,
All the things that remind me of our love,
The passion between our breath,
This madness of our kiss,
Tying to hide the blues,
This thing we call love,
And I remember,
Once upon a time,
On a dreamy night,
I prayed for you,
All the things bereft of me,
Came in an instance,
With love’s first kiss,
My past life erased,
No one else mattered,
Nothing else to exist,
To my heart,
My soul,
Today,
With all my might,
I’ll keep walking,
Keep trying to find the love,
Left high and dry,
During the night,
In the wee morning hours,
I’ll keep looking,
Searching,
For the love of my life,
Just one more kiss,
Keep my soul alive,
I’ve got to be strong,
Left yesterday behind,
All that’s left is tomorrow,
For me to find.

Tag My soul

It hit me by surprise,
My blood started to rise,
The wearying on my soul,
It felt ice cold

The sadness,
The anger,
It’s all mixed,
What did I miss

Feeling the abandonment,
Not knowing what the feelings were inside,
I’m sick with grief,
And it’s starting to burn

Oh hell baby,
Skinned my love alive,
Why did you have take me for a ride,
Left me standing in the cold,
Oh hell baby, you peeled me,
Left my bare soul,
In this dive alive

Oh baby, baby, baby, the cold air is burning a hole,
I’m cursed to die alone,
Gonna beg for my death to come quick,
I can’t handle the days ahead,
Where I’ll be just sick

Why did you have to take me here,
To leave me lying here all alone,
Maybe you held the door open,
and I missed the writing on the walls

So you decided to kick me out,
By the curb,
No shelter,
No food,
Is this what they call a lovers hell

I thought I was lucky this time,
Thought you could love me with all your heart,
Now my heart is just an empty hole,
Black as cole

I’m dying out on this rocky dirt road,
I need a fix,
Need something to cover the pain,
While I wait for the coroner to tag my soul.

The Witch and The Caveman

I want to cry like I’ve never done,
In the passion I know you’ll surrender,
To me,
Weeks have passed,
And we are virgins to one another,
Honing in on each other,
A mutual prey,
Our needs multiply each second,
Of every day,
My sorcery commands your stare,
Your paralyzed senses stir,
Your cage rattles to my dismay,
How I squirm, beg and plead,
Take me,
Though we wait,
And we suffer,
To taste the wine,
Where we will succumb,
To loves greatest story,
The one yet to be told,
The love that flourishes behind closed doors,
My caveman,
I hunger to be ripped to shreds,
To be bitten,
My hair pulled,
For you to ravish my extremities,
You fiend,
A new drug,
Called desire,
I feel your heart beating,
A heart attack coming,
Waiting and yearning,
To bite a piece of me.

Fancy

I don’t need anything fancy,
I don’t need diamonds,
Or gold,
I don’t need expensive bags or clothes,
Or to be driven in a Mercedes,
I don’t need an expensive house over-looking the city,
Or a trip to an island paradise,
All I need is you,
we could live off the earth,
No need to waste money eating out,
On extravagances,
No need,
Fancy is the way you look in my eyes,
It’s priceless,
I love you so much,
And none of those superficial things matter to me,
All I need is you,
And your arms wrapped around me,
You think I’m sexy,
And you lay dissolving in a puddle of bliss,
I want to bathe in your bliss,
Taste the essence of you,
And become every part that makes you you,
You drive the passion,
My wild side I can’t contain,
You make me hungry for love,
The love only you have,
To make me sane.

Love Encompasses All Emotions

tears stream down my cheeks,
in a peaceful way,
as if comforting me,
that regardless of the separation,
you are here with me,
that our only separation is time,
a reminder of how love hurts,
even when you’re in love,
and as happy as you can be,
love is an emotion that carriers all emotions in such a mystifying way,
baffling at times,
the way love is,
love can be bliss,
love can be the core of anger,
love can be sad,
pain,
love can blow you away,
with just one kiss,
love is captured in the way you look at me,
love is Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde,
love is the cure for most of the things,
we hide,
and love is all we need,
love watches us suffer,
indeed,
and yet,
we die for love,
as if it is the staple of our human needs,
our core to exist,
love boasts,
love cures,
love tears us apart,
i need love,
don’t you?

A Poisonous Mind

Clouded doubt hovers over me,
It’s angry,
Dark,
Puffy,
Blackish-grey,
The cloud swirls around,
Above my head,
I begin to cower,
Unable to fight off the demons,
Daggers hit,
They miss,
Where’s my armor?
I try to dodge the panic settling in,
You press my buttons,
Find new ways to penetrate my walls,
Sabotaging the best memories of all,
Stripping away my confidence,
Why must you tamper with my heart?
My dreams?
You bastard,
Don’t make me fall,
I need my heart to flow,
With warmth and love,
You’re poisoning me,
I’m dying,
Don’t do this to me,
I can’t survive the blow to my head,
My heart still pumps,
Intermittently,
Blood slowly flows in the aftermath,
Trickling what was left,
Of the sunniest days,
Yesterday,
Please I beg,
Restore the faith,
Don’t kill me now,
My life has just begun,
Damn you,
And your games,
Stop fucking with me,
Do you hear me?
I scream,
Laughter roars,
From behind my heart,
Echoes through me,
Like song I do not wish to hear,
My mind finds pleasure,
It’s just the start,
The dance in the shadows,
Where it’s not black or white,
Where blood splatters the walls,
With pieces of my soul,
Decorating with the skeletons,
Dangling from my past,
Where love abandoned me,
And my mind brings about,
The solemn stories,
Once hidden,
Now alive,
Again,
Parading down my happiest days,
To shove the pain,
Down my throat,
I start to gag,
Suffocating,
The pleasure you find in reminding me,
My mind,
A powerful oz,
Magnifies the shoved memories I’ve locked away,
Skills my heart can’t maneuver around,
Strengthening in these empty days,
Where silence steals me,
My heart,
Please understand,
Why I need the reassurance,
Why the quiet hours just won’t do,
These still moments bury my heart under debris,
With the scattered trash,
My mind creates a meal,
Of the past,
And I eat,
My own poison,
An album of death,
Decorated with ribbons, and broken trophies,
Of the nothing,
I once was.

Erotically Peaceful

I breathe in your soul,
And I taste your essence,
It is sweet,
A rare and unique dessert,
I find myself titillated,
My taste buds sizzle,
I can’t contain my need,
My desire,
To kiss you again,
And again,
For hours,
Our lips taste,
Our tongues dance,
I inhale,
I’m high,
Your eyes mirror my soul,
Intoxicated on love,
Our souls connect,
Intertwine,
We are united,
In a lovers kiss,
Love’s paradise,
Where we are,
Erotically peaceful,
Never to see the night.