Wasted Love

My eyes are now a dam

Holding tears back

I can no longer cry for you

I’m trying, I’m trying, they won’t come out

 

The pressure builds like sand

The weight against my heart numbs my love

My blood no longer feels warm 

I can’t feel my toes

 

I gave you all my love

I moved mountains and split the oceans between us

I patiently waited for your love

I waited to be your number one

 

I want to cry, find relief

I need some other soul to find me

I want to love someone who wants to love me

I need to find my way home before I drown in this wasted love

 

 

My bones have become weak

I need to drain this tragic lake of emotions tied to your soul

There must be an outlet to release the pain

Thought waves break against my failing heart and soul

Love has forsaken me with blind eyes

 

I gave you all my love

I moved mountains and split the oceans between us

I patiently waited for your love

I waited to be your number one

 

I want to cry, find relief

I need some other soul to find me

I want to love someone who wants to love me

I need to find my way home before I drown in this wasted love

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Rules of Love

Love does not seek to punish,

Nor to tame,

Love does not question loyalty,

Or to shame,

Love does not take for granted trust,

Or love and commitment forever,

Love shall always strive to grow and to please,

Love shall never be content they will never leave,

Love must not ignore there are others waiting in the wings,

Love must take time to care and nurture,

To respect,

To be a best friend,

If not,

Love will be lost and you will be left with regret. 

To Love and Be Loved

Why must love be thin as water?

It slips through my fingers slowly so that I may taste what cannot last

I desperately try to grasp a drop

Hold on to love with all I’ve got

I want to feel love drench my skin

I want to absorb it

Taste it

I want to sing a song of a siren and capture the love of sailors

Many, many men to fill my cup 

I want to drink love

Not wash my hands of love 

I want to bathe in thicker water

I want to love and be loved 

An Image Of Blue

I used to hold on to every word you said

Re-read it every day in my head

It was poetry to my soul

Now the words are cold

They’ve severed my soul

Left me to slip away In the harshness told

 

I fell in love with someone you used to be

I fell in love with someone I guess I wanted you to be

Blinded by the hope all men aren’t the same

Fooled once again you’re no different from them

 

Maybe you don’t cheat

But you still lie and abuse

Take me for granted

Drink morning, noon, and night

Yell and put me down

No longer calming and patient

Maybe I’ve just been a fool

 

I got lost in the way I wanted it to be

I got lost in a dream that was just a dream

I got lost in the sex that turned a blur

I got lost in an a illusion of passion built-in an image of blue

 

Happy Never After

Wandering off near the creek

Sun glistened anew 

Specks of gold flickered through the sky

I leaned down to kiss a frog that suddenly appeared

Could this be my prince?

Was my dream about to come alive?

I stood in a trance

The moment has arrived 

As the transformation began

Dark smoke clouds shimmered up into the blue sky 

Just then a monstrous beast materialized

Red eyes

A spineless soul

I couldn’t believe my eyes 

My fairy tale ending never to be seen

Tricked into the arms of satan

A dream turned terror

In this land of happy never after 

Losing Hope

Each passing day I see you indulging in the poison my love starts to melt away
My dream and smile fades
I stand on one side of the street and you stand behind the barriers of wire metal by your own accord
I hope you see as each tear sheds, a cry of love slowly drifts away
I hope you see the glow of my heart start to tinker away
I hope you see what you’re throwing away before it’s too late

Old Chapters

“You are damaged goods with a trail of torn pages from old books weighing you down”, he swears at me in between explicit words. 

Bashing me more, my savior no more,
My head falls low and I succumb to the dark thoughts of no more 

With a broken soul imprisoned by a haunted past,

I cry silently in this unknown world I once had known as love 

“I looked to be reassured, hugged, and not punished more,

but the harshness of your words is a hundred lashes to my soul”, I cry helplessly

I walk bounded by the chains of my past,

Spit upon and shamed by the one I love,

My soul is snuffed instead of being held and loved

My baggage plays victim from town to town,

Where can I hide?

When can I stop being powerless to the outside?

“Save me from falling by the wayside again”, I pray to the angels. 

Are you there? Do you hear me? Do you even exist? 

I cry some more, no one is there.