What Life Once Was

Lost in the stillness
On a path
Venturing the distance
Leading with my backside
With nothing in view
Only miles and miles
Of shades of lemon and tangerine
A mirage of lemonade
A refreshing taste of yesterday
It covers my eyes
It gets real
I am locked inside my mind
Dancing with the devil
Sipping the poison
Breathing the blackness
Barricaded in the confines of self-inflicted emotional abuse
Why doesn’t the sunshine rescue the helpless?
The emotional
The insecure
The lost
The colors
They cloud
Paint an image of peace
They should heal
Give hope
Why don’t they bring happiness to my mind?
Breathing fresh air
I’m outside
Dancing with the devil
The allure
No holy test
To secure a place in the soul
To save the tortured
Damage has already occurred
I sold my soul to the devil
Damn the need to walk across to the other side
To view the greener grass
The artificial turf
Trickery of the source
When vulnerability captures the weakness
My sunshine starts to bleed
Turning grotesque red
I feel the heat
I’m dying
In the bottomless pit
Where tomorrow never comes
And today stands still
And yesterday is lost
A forgotten memory
Of what life
Once was
Before darkness stepped in
Stripping away the little bit of happiness
Why didn’t I just hold on?