An Intimate Moment, You and Me

I love you for removing the grey clouds that pierce my eyes,
I love you for adding extra sunshine to my life,
I love you for getting mad at my irrational times that make me shake the fears that are only mine,
It makes me adore you more,
For the man you are,
For being attentive,
For adding change,
For the continued effort,
I love you all the same,
I love you for all the love you show and give,
I love you for all these things,
The many, many, many things,
I even love you for all things you haven’t done because our time isn’t done,
For the infinite years that are still to come,
I love between the hours of today and tomorrow,
When you are loving me,
I fall more and more in love each time I look your eyes, 
When you are between my thighs reaching the depths of me,
It is there where I see your soul and feel the bond that cannot break,
You hold the key to everything that makes you and me.

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Hold Me

Crying myself to sleep, I know you can’t hear my soft cries

You got your back to me, and I am wondering why

Why can’t you pick up on the soft clues, its been weeks

Why can’t you hear the tremble of my soul between the sheets

 

I’m battered, broken and beat

My self-esteem is in threads, I am starting to deplete

Stop yelling at me to change, to be more like you

I plead

 

Hold me close and see me through

Can’t you see, I am not like you

I am not like you

I am me, just me

Learning to fly with taped wings

 

I keep crying for the lord to help me

Anyone, anyone, can you hear me

Hold my hand until I fall to sleep

I reach for the pills in the silence but I still weep

I just want to numb the heartache

Erase the past

I just want to sleep

 

I’m battered, broken and beat

My self-esteem is in threads, I am starting to deplete

Stop yelling at me to change, to be more like you

I plead

 

Hold me close and see me through

Can’t you see, I am not like you

I am not like you

I am me, just me

Learning to fly with taped wings

 

The damage seems impassable

My heart is held together by band aids and stitches

Trying to fly with the shattered wings I wrapped

I am nothing more than a tortured soul trying to escape

 

No matter the love

No matter the pain

I see it all the same

I feel it all the same

I need you to hold me

Until I am whole

Until I change

Until metamorphosis brings back my trust in love

 

Hold me close and see me through

Hold me close and see me through

Hold me close

Hold me close

Hold me

 

 

 

Rosebud

The beauty of a rosebud
Waits to bloom
The art of patience I do not know
A freshly planted seed
I wait so patiently to see it sprout
To grow
To absorb the sunlight
To inhale its floral scent
To watch it slowly come alive
I pace and I pace
I walk this faint line
Damn the wait
I sigh
Please blossom
I whisper a delicate cry
What will the outcome be?
How many more days to confirm the growth?
This life?
The space of mind, body and soul
Fills me endlessly
The beauty of a rose
Love encompasses the stem
The leaves
Petals
And thorns
In me
In you
In us
The beautiful journey has begun

Doubt in My Mind

I balanced on a thin rope,
Swaying to the left,
I tried not to tilt right,
And go off the deep side,
The weight on my shoulders teeters me,
Back and forth,
No middle ground,
That’s absurd,
Normalcy unheard,
Pieces falling,
And I can’t stay balanced,
I withdrawal,
I want to fall,
Black and white,
I want to see red,
To bleed the demons running through my head,
The vicious monsters,
Driving my insecurities,
Growing vines,
Wrapping and warping my heart, and mind,
The silence slowly kills me,
So I pick up the pace on my rope,
Dangle and shake,
I can’t take any more,
Hoping, and praying to reach the other side,
Before I croak,
Losing the infamous battle,
To doubt,
And my mind.